Hello for a while. Time flies super fast then I continue working for one and half years as advisor and somehow live during this chaotic world.
I happened to remember my diary, which I wrote during junior at university and found it vrty interesting. I again decide to write down things happened to me and feeling I felt.
Since having conversation with my old friend and about to meet today, I got very nourvius that I have not felt for a long time.
There are several reasons;
1. Had truly decided to say "goodbye forever" to him whenever we met next time
2. Knew that he will been to other country for his job
3. Although #1, would not end up with the relationship with him (continue as friends)
In the morning, I got nerved and shivered for meeting him and could not pretend who I am at home. Through waking around my home
, I tried to not focus.
The time has come and actually it was very natural and had really fun time with talking with him.
But later things had changed (tbh I knew how things would go tho).
Anyways as the result(lol), we set a trial to date. Who knows how long this would go?
but there is one thing that I keep in my mind that I will try to reach him whenever I feel something.
As my past relationship with my ex, I felt to be loved and I did love but I was also exhausted and can't be myself. I always asked how busy my ex was etc. After breaking up with him, I a bit cried but later I felt released, which gave lots of evergy to live.
Since we've known each other more than 4years, I can be myself and very comfortable when I am with the trial guy (yep I will call him like this here).
life gets more fun and exciting for sure ;)))
